The desperate towkay got us 7 deadlines each for this week. Actually I knew about it last Fri but I was more stressed and pissed then, now I just feel so depressed. I didn't really get to spend my weekend with any ease or peace, constanly feeling bothered. Thinking about workload, thinking about when will those companies get back to me. And then returning home having to do work again, seriously I wouldn't have mind if they were my freelances stuff. I just can't stand the fact that work from the office had to be in such unreasonable amount, pouring over to the weekends. I guess mainly why it's this unbearable was also due to the fact that this had been going on for some time now, you know how people say that when you have too much of something it's bad? Yeah too much of work, definitely not healthy.
The morning seemed so depressing, having to pull myself up and going to work. Well back then I'd have to pulled myself up as well but I was just sleepy. Now I'm sleepy and afraid of work. No morale, no mood, no creativity. Things in office now is just plain negative, unbalanced yin and yang, too much of dark side just like dagobah. You can just picture this, a cold, dull office with 3 zombies infront of their PCs (where's the mac-lovin-apple man)and then the zombie king would just come in like much later in the day and cast lvl 10 tyranny over the 3 zombie slaves, aha! Sigh....
I need to get out of this system. And I have made up my mind. I'm leaving, no matter what. If I have to, I will part-time, I will freelance for the time being but in order to keep myself sane, I must leave this place.
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